The Irony

OK so what are the chances that two people who need to lose about 40 lbs a piece have a child that refuses to eat and now falls in the bottom 10 percentile of weight for kids his age. The doctor says we have to get more fat and calories into his diet. Easy for them to say. The child won't eat! So, up until now, his main source of calories has been apple juice and goldfish crackers. But that obviously is not helping. The doctor says that he's refusing to eat everything else and just stubbornly holding out for the few things he really likes.

So, now it's a battle of the wills and my child doesn't know who he's messin with! He hasn't had any goldfish for two days and now he's drinking V8 fusion juice instead of apple juice because it has a serving of fruit and veggies in every glass. That's about the only veggies he'll take. He's not really getting any snacks between meals so that we can retrain him to actually eat meals. If I do think he's getting hungry and it's not meal time, I'll offer him fruit or a breakfast bar or something healthy.

Once we get him eating normal, then my poor child can have his precious goldfish. Hopefully it won't take too long, because as strong willed as I am, I think he might beat me down! He's doing ok so far, but still not eating near as much for lunch and dinner as he should. But boy he sure loves his nutrigrain waffles for breakfast. He'll always eat that. As for any other food, totally depends on the day as to if he likes it or not. He liked corn bread today. Ask me tomorrow, I'll probably tell you that he hates it. He likes to keep mom guessing. But gone are the days of giving him 5 different options at meal time to find the one he wants. That was about to drive me insane. The doctor now says, he'll eat when he's hungry... I hope so, or else, 5 percentile here we come!!!

The things we do for our kids

So, as I write this blog, Hector is next to me on the treadmill walking with Ben in his arms. Mind you, this is not how it started. Hector has been trying to run at night to drop some weight. He's in a Biggest Loser contest at school, so he's on a mission. My job was to keep Ben from the treadmill. Obviously, I failed at my job. He went straight to the treadmill and reached up with both arms and a pitiful face for Hector. I was just going to take him back to his room to play a little bit before I put him to bed. Hector said he wanted to try holding him while he walked. Now Ben is about 2 seconds away from being sound asleep. How sweet is that? I tried to take a picture that I'll post later, but my battery is dead so I had to use my phone, and it doesn't come close to capturing the precious moment. Sweet father son memnts start early!

Sweet Day

Every day with Ben is sweet, but some days, like today, are especially sweet. I stood in awe of him all day. Hector was off today, so we had great family time. There were several times that I was brought to tears just looking at Hector and Ben interact and love on each other. They were those moments that you just want to freeze. Precious moments that fill your heart with an indescribable joy.

I spent the day praising God for the amazing indescribable gift He's given me in my son. I'm sure all mothers can relate, but I kept starring at him today, thinking to myself, "He couldn't be any more beautiful"! Words cannot express how thankful I am for Benjamin. He is a reflection of my God, and I get to look at that reflection all day everyday. How awesome is that!

It's impossible to capture in words the love I have for him, but for some reason, I wanted to do my best to write it down so someday, years from now, Ben can see how much his mother loved him from the very beginning. Cheesy, I know. He's a boy. He probably won't even care! :) I love you Benjamin Ray more than you will ever ever know.